Up and Down
I have had a very up and down week. I was about as down as I’ve ever been on Monday. I just had a terrible day. I felt totally overwhelmed by everything, it felt like I couldn’t do my job properly, everything was getting on top of me and I felt like I was sinking. I nearly burst into tears a number of times on Monday just from the sheer pressure of everything.
Tuesday rolled around and I logically thought about what I had to do, and what I could get away with not doing. I worked hard to try and make a dent in the display work I’ve got to do and last night felt that I’d had a much better day. I knew what I had to do and where to go.
Today was a bit of a nothing day though to be honest. I had time out of the classroom this morning to sort some things out for Literacy and then I had PPA this afternoon. We didn’t get anywhere near what we needed to done in PPA for various reasons but we got some useful work done.
We’re floundering a bit with this whole mixed age issue and planning and teaching for sich a wide range of abilities is proving to be very challenging. This is not helped by the fact that despite having statemented children in the classes we have had no TA support really so far. Hopefully the TA timetable will kick in next week though so that should help. The kids in my class vary across 9 sub-levels for writing, and a greater gap for reading. Numeracy is about the same. I think once we get some TA support we will find things a little easier.
Anyhow, I’m feeling a lot more positive at this point than I was on Monday, in that I’m not nearly crying every few minutes. That has got to be a good thing.